Today I was reflecting on my journey for the past few year and all the ups and downs I faced. At one time, the pressure was so great I found myself wondering if I should continue on the path I was on or change gears. I put some serious thought into it and decided that nothing worth having was going to be easy. I had to be patient and trudge ahead. At times I felt like I was pushing against the wind, with forces of opposition blowing against me from all directions. It slowed me down, almost to a crawl, but I refused to let it make me stop and quit.
I love the work of Rumi. His words spoken over seven centuries are still so relevant to our contemporary times. One of his poems became my personal mantra at times. His words ‘if all you can do is crawl, start crawling’ really stuck with me. Eventually, the wind calmed down and I picked up speed. But through it all, I kept crawling.
Whatever you’re going through it’s important to remember that it’s better to crawl than to quit. Speaking with a colleague over the start of the new year I was reminded at how far I’ve managed to come by just crawling.
I guess part of living includes those moments where we question ourselves and often feel alone. I don’t know about you but I’ve had my lonely seasons and seasons I felt unappreciated. I recently had a colleague say to me that she just felt like giving up and heading back into the job market because her family just did not seem to appreciate the effort she was putting in to develop her consultancy. And although her husband said he supported her, his actions showed no faith in her.
Sometimes, at the end of the day, we just have to believe in ourselves. As someone with dreams, it is my responsibility to push forward no matter how others respond. And it’s probably unfair to expect others to catch my vision and feel the passion and excitement as I do. You don’t need a cheering section. Just believe in yourself and start crawling.
Carlana Charles is the visionary and editor-in-chief of FemmePowered. She is a womanist, writer, speaker, story midwife and facilitator of meaningful and engaging conversations. When she is not working in or on FemmePowered, she can be found resting, baking, reading or scribbling furiously in her journal whilst sipping wine or coffee, sometimes both at the same time. She is currently working on her first book and hopes to release it in September 2018.