Each season or year, a word bubbles up so strongly from my spirit, I can’t escape it, I can’t ignore it. It pulls me in and holds me so tight, I must embrace and bear witness to the word. The word stalks me relentlessly. I hear it in my dreams and I see signs of it everywhere go. So when the word for this season revealed itself to me, I was taken aback, terrified, almost. Because it entailed a shift in the way I live and do things. Go slowly.
I know the word of the season is meant to motivate and guide me and bring out some things in me. But can I just be real here for a minute? I am so struggling with going slowly. Slow is hard for me. I’m not even sure if my brain is wired to go slow. My friends and family know me as the one with the over-active brain. “Rest your brain, love”, says my special person. “Slow down” says my mom. “Stop working on weekends” says my sis. Grinding, pushing and going hard is the way I’ve always lived. So you know what I did with my word? Not a whole lot. For the most part, I kept doing me. I spent more time on self-care, but still kept the pace. And then it happened, I blacked out and found myself at the bottom of some stairs last week.
Message finally registered.
We live in a society that values hustle against going slow. There is a general feeling that the unmotivated and unambitious go slow. And whilst I’ve always hated the word hustle because of the images it conjured up in my mind, I’m no fan on going slow, either.
I’m now practicing leaning into this season and I’m watching how going slowly will unfold in all areas of my life. It is a process, as with all meaningful change. I’ve had to cancel things and take a leave of absence, the first in my 10 years of self-employment. But I know the dangers of not leaning in and embracing my words and seasons. So this is where I go slowly.
Question: have you ever wondered about the origins of the word hustle? I do, thanks to this article.
The origins of the word “Hustle” are traced back to the 15th century revolutionist Jan Hus and his role in sparking the crusades against the Catholic church — called the Hussite Wars.“Huseln” was the verb given to Jan’s movement’s desperate & deceitful recruitment methods. It’s predecessor form, “hustling,” evolved as a verb meaning to con, force, push, coerce and manipulate in order to survive.
Interesting, eh? Check out the full article on Huffington Post.
Carlana Charles is the visionary and editor-in-chief of FemmePowered. She is a womanist, writer, speaker, story midwife and facilitator of meaningful and engaging conversations. When she is not working in or on FemmePowered, she can be found resting, baking, reading or scribbling furiously in her journal whilst sipping wine or coffee, sometimes both at the same time. She is currently working on her first book and hopes to release it in September 2018.