I am beautiful

I am beautiful. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. My hips are beautiful, my lips are perfect, my fingers are just the way He designed them to be. There are no flaws in my construction, my design, my external architecture. I’m just the way I was created to be. I waited 34 years before I could confidently say these things to myself and actually believe them. Body acceptance, total self acceptance evaded me for many years. As a teen I was on the skinny side, very thin, very waif like. As in headed into my twenties, I struggled to accept my body. Everyone thought I had a good size and was well proportioned, looking back I was, but I fixated on the things I could not change. The size of my forehead, the size of my nose or the shape of my face gave me grief for a long time.…

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Loss is Inevitable. Healing is a Choice

“Your life is probably chaotic, and nothing really makes any kind of sense.” ~ Dancing At The Crossroad. This was me six years ago. On November 28, 2010, I was awakened by a phone call that shattered my world. It was the kind of phone call you are never prepared for, the kind that, years later, still has your heart racing every time the phone rings in the wee hours of the morning. It was 5:30 am. I wasn’t expecting any bad news. I just thought it was my Mom calling to chat, her usual early morning routine while she was having her tea. But this morning was different because my Mom was no longer here to chitty chat. The night before we had such a fun conversation and she rushed me off the phone to talk to her other friends. We committed to catching up the next day, but there…

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Introducing Aye Gyal

Hello people. Happy Monday. How is April unfolding for you? On my end, it holds great promise and the opportunity to step into new doors. Less than a week ago, I launched Aye Gyal. Aye Gyal is an online publication that focuses on women telling their stories of triumph, struggle, pain, resilience and other range of human emotions. The idea behind Aye Gyal is to show that we all have stories, our stories matter and when we acknowledge and give them voice, they can bring meaningful change to ourselves and others. Aye Gyal is for women from the Caribbean and Diaspora. I invite you to check out the space and stories and do consider sharing your story. You can do so openly or anonymously. I’ll also be in Trinidad this month conducting a workshop on Journaling and Personal Storytelling on 29th April. The workshop will be held at Unwined, a cute…

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Call her Grace

Who is this woman? This woman is strength. She is love and she is the walking, living and breathing manifestation of determination and resilience. This woman is beauty. Not the type that fades away, but beauty that comes from a place beneath the layers of skin, where real beauty resides. This woman is a giver, a lover, a keeper, a helper. But this woman did not always know this. She did not know who she was and she was yet to comprehend her worth. You see, she let circumstances and people and their treatment of her, define her worth and inform her reality. This woman has been used, abused, discarded and disregarded, again and again and again. This woman has been broken so many times, it is a wonder that she can even pick up her pieces. But pick up herself she does, with scarred, trembling and bleeding fingers. To the world she may appear…

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Postpartum depression, shame and the Christian

Words can’t express the emotions I felt with the news of her impending arrival. After miscarriages that rocked my world, to hear that I was going to be a mother again, and this time to a sweet, precious baby girl, excited me beyond my ability to articulate. After wanting a little girl for so long, I thought it would be an easy pregnancy. I was wrong. For some time I wanted to talk about my struggle with postpartum depression and the shame I experienced with it, but I never found the right platform to share. Social media isn’t always the best place to share your heart, so I was honored to share with Aye Gyal and felt it would be the perfect, judgement free place for me. My birth story is a shocker. I almost lost my life bringing my sweetheart into the world. But that’s not what I’m sharing about today. Today I’m sharing…

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